Thinking back....

This last year and a half have been really tough & I don't know why it is but I've been doing a lot of thinking about it over the past few days.

Thinking back on it now, my birth mom & the rest of my biological family aren't the whole reason I moved back to Minnesota. At the time I thought they were for a brief moment in time in my mind I thought they were the whole reason I moved... But there was much more to it than that... I didn't realize it then & I may not ever fully realize it but I'm starting to see bits & pieces as they happen.

The pieces I see now........I see now that I had to move back when I did not just to be closer to my family, both biological & adopted sides, but to prepare (although I didn't know it) for my Mom's death, so we could go to her funeral & burial, to see what kind of person some people really are, to be in a place where we live on the lower level, to be able to have both my hip surgeries & I'm sure there are many more reasons I just haven't seen yet. In the midst of my thinking & pondering about the last year and a half or so & everything that happened, a song popped in my head. It's called Trust His Heart. I hadn't heard it in a really long time but it just came into my head & I could only remember a few of the words but it was just stuck there. I went looking on YouTube & found a video with the lyrics of the song & the first time I watched it all the way through I just broke down & cried...

It was such a comforting reminder, that I seem to need almost constantly, of how God is THE one in control & all we really need to do, as hard as it is to do, is to trust him. Even when we don't understand, don't see His plan and can't trace His hand.... Just trust His heart ♥